was sad when i woke up this morning.received 2 bdae msg-es frm sin mei and rach.went for training.tiring lor.taught the sec 1s.damn sian.nth to do.shoot balls.all never go in.fustrated.more pple wished me happy bdae.den coach made us do the DDR thingy.thrice!--"
went to N&B after that.went town to find sy and rach.couldn't contact them den went back.slpt in the 105 bus.hais~memories.reached home~dived for the bed straight away!
watched teeve.bathe.received a msg from him.den i was like damn happy.at least~he still remembers.the happiness died down gradually.cos he's not mine.hais!well,had dinner at jack's place.ordered a NZ sirloin steak and jellicious mango float *5 stars.papa sent me to serangoon gardens.met wanwin and rach dere.they gave me a blink182 shirt.with milkster 13(nai hoon) in the front.i LOVE IT!hahahax.i kept laughing~for no apparent reason.
perhaps..i still love him.perhaps i still have feelings for him.perhaps..perhaps..
but i don wanna love him.i feel numbed.tired.sad.empty inside.i'm not happy.at all.i'm just trying to be happy~i guess.but i'm feeling much better den last time.i no longer feel the heartaches.but the memories still linger in my mind.my heart.my soul.why did i choose to take this path.why?i wished that all this was a dream.so when i wake up~everything will be gone.2 more days to 24o5o4.hais.if onli~it was 24o5o3.but,everything's gone.i'm not holding on.i just feel awkard.i want him to be erased from my mind.issit that difficult?
this birthday isn't as happy for me this year.i swear.i wun fall in love again.may god bless me.
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amanda*
andrea*
andrew*
angmoh*
audrey*
bernice//
chuhao//
darren//
emily//
huiqi//
irra//
jac*
jacinta*
jason*
jiayan*
joanne*
joshua*
karen//
kiran
lijian*
likhian*
mad//
mandy
nora*
nura*
rachie//
saurah//
siewting//
sherilyn//
shiying//
shuying
ting*
tingxuan*
val//
vosh
wanwin*
weiyee*
wenna*
wenzhao*
ying//
yiling//
yingxian//
yufeng//
yvon//
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