ARGH~i feel so fustrated.I DON WANNA THINK ABT HIM.I DON WANNA THINK ABT ANYTHING.CAN SUMBODY JUST STAB ME TO DEATH?OR LET A CAR RUN OVER ME.haix.mayb~just mayb i ain't trying hard enough.like wad wanwin said.my life's messed up.i have a fucked up life.a fucked up attitude.please.PLEASE i beg you all.don come PISS ME.P-I-S-S you noe?
life's like so 'GREAT' yea.wonder wad's happening to me.i don even noe myself.sorry if i offend any of you out dere.life's like a whole pile of SHIT to me rite now.my hormones are getting out of hand.ok~so it's not my fault.or issit?i'm getting nowhere.
ok so i've got no mood to study at all.i'm gonna flunk both my a*maths and POA.haven't touched any of them.partly becos of the state dat i'm landed myself in.and becos i'm too lazy.to even lift the book.or even take a LOOK at it.went serangoon gardens.den came back.threw tantrums.railed at my brotehrs.was shouting like nobody's business.
here i am.talking to lester and lyna.and crying.and cutting.and doing nth.but thinking of dying.and writing testi for chu hao.which came out quite offending.but i guess he din't really mind.yes.chu hao rocks.=X.den talking to fabian.damn he ask me alot of questions.be glad that i wasn't pissed.nvm~he's nice actually.glad he ain't sad over that lian anymore.o.O
so.cried terribly.real terribleglad mom din't come into my room.ain't wanna ruin mother's day.and let my father interrogate me again.so lyna's kinda coucilling me.or mayb giving me advice.she's great.always so optimistic and everything.i really admire her.she's like a mom in class.she's the best.tells me that other girls out there have also been hurt and stuffs.reminds me of aunt janet's r/s.7 years together.but broke up in the end.i guess mine's just some puny thing.even marreid pple who sleep on the same bed~get divorce sumhow.hais.
mayb it's easy for me to say.but doing it is so difficult.maybe.somehow.i hope.someone will bring me out of this misery.ok.this post is ironic.sighx
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