i'm farking pissed off.was doing a new layout for my blog.den everything screws up.doesn't turn out right.argh!.mel di di keep asking me to lac.hahahax.thanx bro =)).farked up thing.i do until so nice den.haix.nvm~gonna try it another time.
went to chomp chomp and ate with lynnies.damn alot of pple dere.saw the other YANXING.omg he's so shuai.lynnies was practically drooling over him.hahahax.i wonder if it's a sign or wad~xiao xin?saw my aunt and cousins dey all dere too.den lynnies took the wrong bus home.lols~took 317 den walked home frm interchg.was thinking abt alot of things.my life is so messed up.i wonder if i'll be able to promote to sec 4 this yr.i'm afraid of retaining.i haven't overcome the r/s yet.i may appear that i have.but in fact~i haven't.i've been lying to myself and everybody all this while.acting as if i'm the happiest person on earth.i'm NOT.i'm under depression again.or shld i say~i'd always been.
temptation of picking up the penknife and sliting my wrists again.but i daren't.gaffar says if i do it one more time.the nxt dae,i'll see the whole of his left arm red.he says he's darn serious abt it.i felt damn touched when i see that msg.i cried.i feel like i've let everyone down.why the fuck must i be lidat.i have no idea.feeling damn terrible inside.i wonder how long it'll take before this pain subsides.3 mths already.he's like totally over me,farking heck me.den i'm here,feeling useless and hopeless.i wished i could brain wash myself.i wished that all this was a dream.but it ain't.it's a FACT.a fact that i still can't accept.a fact that i still can't live with.feeling so emotional now.i know i could break down anytime.anywhere.in fact now.mayb the promise i made~would never be true.i've let all of you down my jie mei`x and xiong di`s.i'll never be able to overcome this.mayb one dae~i'll disappear from all of your lives.a life without me.a world without me.but i won't forget all of you.thank you xiong di jie meix.~
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