went to Monk's Hill Sec todae.met melvin and mandy before going to meet sufi.saw a cockroach at Newton's mrt station *freaky*.Monk's Hill is big!much much bigger den zhonghua.erm,and quite complicated too.their sch's hall is quite small though.anyway~the band performed and we watched.reg,mandy and mel were commenting on their bands and stuffs.i diam cos i duno anything bout band.anyway,their band was quite gd.better den zhonghua's for sure.gort GOLD for SYF worx.after dat went around the stalls.asked saurah to buy some boo-boo special drink,cos we too paiseh liao.sufi got ice-cream for us.he had $100 bucks to spent =|.me and mandy did hannahs~went home at bout 3+.felt quite alone being in the mrt alone.haish~remembered last time me and him...oh nvm.don wanna talk bout those past memories.
reached home.surfed the net.wasn't really surfing.was looking through my past blogs.read those entries abt me and him.the quarrels.the unhappiness.the tears.the obstacles we've gone through.the lies.the hatred.the pain.the forgiveness.the chances.the happy moments.the laughter.the smiles.the quiet moments.the time when we first hug.haish~and alot alot alot alot more.too much to say.too much to recall.too much to forget.given in too much,and now i suffer in silence.on my own.nobody noes how i feel.and really nobody noes!!i just feel like cutting myself again,then i'll bleed to death.and the world won't even give a damn.
i really cannot take this pain anymore.i really cannot continue my life like this.i feel so terrible inside.why do i have to hide my feelings,my emotions and my true self?i duno.i don even know wad i'm doing with my life.just living as the days go by.i'm a gerl~a human.all humans have feelings,so do i.i may seem strong on the outside.but i'm not.i contain all my problems inside of me.and mayb at some particular time,i'll let them all out.like now for instance.when shiying say he like another ger,i may appear dat i don cared.but i really mind~sometimes i may scold him,say bout his bad points and stuffs,but i feel different inside.nobody noes dat bax.
sorry ar shiying and rachel~mayb you all duno wad's going on in my head and heart.just i just feel damn horrible.sorry kaex.i'm just in no mood to mayb talk or crap ard.lyfe just sucks to the core.i'm a hopeless freak.
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chuhao//
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huiqi//
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jason*
jiayan*
joanne*
joshua*
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kiran
lijian*
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mad//
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nora*
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siewting//
sherilyn//
shiying//
shuying
ting*
tingxuan*
val//
vosh
wanwin*
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wenna*
wenzhao*
ying//
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