haiss..last night..cried myself to sleep..cry-stop-cry-stop-cry-stop-cry again..kept on crying..i duno wad time till i cried till..felt exhausted..went to slp..with a heavy heart..7mths,25 days 22hrs,18 secs...this saturdae our 8th month anniversary.woke up at 4+..couldn't slp..den msg him..tell him hw i feel..den he reply me..bout 5+..den i can tell frm his tone..he reallie don love me anymore..he console me abit ar..den i like act happie happie lor..actually we still okok de..barden till evening dat time..me ren bu zhu..tell him hw i feel..ask him dis and dat..reallie dulan and sad..kept on crying also..he also bth..den use buay song tone say me..
todae cried 3 times in sch..once during recess..me sitting alone..waiting for gt and sy..bard they still queuing..me sit at an unoccupied table..stared into blank space..tinking bout him..den tears just drop down..cheryl and her fren walked to the table..den so paiseh..sit at their table..she ask me wad happen,console me,den go buy drink for me..haiss..so gan dong..den she go ask the 'b' girls pei me sit..i buay dong..lay my head on the table and cry..nisa knew wad happen..ber and joanne told her..cos they were the first one to noe..shld be 2nd one..cos i told val first..=\ wadever..
cried during training..was doing fast break..me cnnt do properly..cnnt concentrate..cried a lil~..after we separated frm the 1s 2s and 3s..me..tried to calm down..bard i couldn't..walked ard with my towel in the face..buay dong..broke down again..nisa run to me..ask me don cry..forget him..console me..den after awhile..ok le..coach also come to me..ask me wad happen..tink nisa told him..
after training..coach ask me if me and him realli break..me said yar..he ask me why..i say duno..den tears come out again..he say ver hard to forget..and i believed him..nvr had i felt so terrible before..love him too much..give in to him too much..cried alot after dinner..cried on my bed..loudly..cos nobody was at home..yi bian sms him..yi bian ku..after dat sms-ed nisa..went online..find val..den sy also online..was crying when sufi called me..told him wad happen..he also an wei wo..thank you peepx..for consoling me..and advising me..esp nisa..shi ying..and val..u 3 are the best..*muackz..sy talked to me alot..den advice me alot of things..help me ask leon dis and dat also..if not for her..i duno wad to do..den tell me she and shawn break dat time..she also experienced this..tell me to forget..and accept the fact dat he's no longer mine..cos if i continue to like him..i'll suffer myself..and if i see him with another gerl..i'll feel more terrible..me also got abit xiang tong..bard still can't get over it..onli time can heal all wounds..
feelin: sad..on the verge of crying..
listening to: first cut is the deepest(i totally agree..haiss)
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